Reviving this thread like it's Nikki Sixx (without the snorting)
I'm a crossroads in my personal life and going to go out on a limb and share this all with LP because fcuk it, life is too short.
As some of you may know I've been struggling to get my business started and get in shape for several years. I graduated college, have been through several family crises, had my fair share of relationship woes, and generally have felt like I've been trying to lift off the ground/break through the wall so to speak many times over.
As a kid I was diagnosed with ADD and given Ritalin/Adderall as well as Zoloft. I was fighting losing several close family members as well as just generally not giving a fcuk in school. I always tested high in everything but math, considered myself a smart kid, but just felt school was a waste of time. On Ritalin/Zoloft I always felt like a machine - I was doing well in school but crashed a lot feeling depressed as well as just "not myself." I think I was too fcuking young to be on the shit plus overweight/not exercising.
Now at 27, I feel like the years have flown by and I don't know where they went (or what I did). I keep going back to "It's been X number of years since I wanted to get my business started and X number of years (too fcuking many) since I've wanted to get in shape." Those two things permeate anything else I've been through and dominate my thoughts. I have had some great times and some real bursts of inspiration or motivation, followed by just a lull that just couldn't be shaken. I have a ton of ideas, feel the desire to get out and do shit, but then just lack the clarity or drive some days. Recently, I lost several pounds and am back on track to losing weight and eating healthy (thanks in part to some help on here as well as kettlebells). I have always felt my best though when I was either at my healthiest (for that time) or when I was well-rested, nourished, and had just worked out.
Sorry for the mini life story, but I know there are a lot of no BS, successful people on here who surely have either been through this or can spot my troubles from a mile away and figure out what the fcuk is going on. I'm in the process of self-diagnosing as ADD/ADHD and also in the process of finding a doctor to either prescribe some meds or work though my issues.
Edit to add link: I found this in a rampage Google search to self-diagnose and was truly frightened how I checked every single one of these. Check it out: http://www.simplywellbeing.com/20-questions-are-you-add-adhd